July 2012
Anonymous asked: Just a heads up. If you had an experience that was terribly scary and painful... then what you tried was NOT mdma.
Even though I binged like a mother fucker yesterday, hating myself for every second of it, I was still too skinny for the model fitting today.
I don’t know wether to be happy because im classified as ‘too skinny’ or cry because I ate all that shit yesterday for nothing.
I can honestly say I will never EVER be trying MDMA ever again or try anything stronger.
Just such a painful and terribly scary experience.
so much blood. everywhere.
fuck.
Watching ‘breaking dawn’ and envying how fucking thin Kristen Stewart is.
She is supposed to be sick and dying and all I keep thinking about is wanting her thighs, arms, collarbones, cheekbones….etc
It’s fucked. So very fucked.
we are.
miastruggling:
we are not binging we are not purging we are not fat.
we are not the nonexistent gap between our thighs or the lump at the bottom of our tummy’s and WE are certainly not fat. we are not a number, we are not calories, we are not a tear streaked face hanging over a toilet bowl. we are not fat. we are not starvation nor are we exercise, nor are we fat.
we are not sleepless...
